I've got a heavy worry on my mind these days and have been feeling as if the weight of the world is upon my shoulders. As always, it's prayer that holds me together and carries me through the difficulties of life so I rely on daily Mass to begin my days.
This morning as I was pulling out of the garage I ran over a board with nails in it and punctured one of the van's tires. I could hear the pop as the nail broke through the rubber and knew I would not be safe to drive the van very far. So instead of attending Mass, I went to get the tire replaced. Coming up on noontime I was sorely feeling that lack of prayer from missing Mass so I asked one of my supervisors at work if I could alter my lunch break allowing me to attend Mass at nearby Gesu parish. I shared a bit of my concerns with her and told her that I knew I could get through the afternoon much better with a little more prayer under my belt.
She's such a kind and prayerful soul herself; a hard-working lactation consultant devoted to helping our clients reach their breastfeeding goals. She recently married a man who will be attending a Presbyterian Seminary in the fall. She handed me her daily devotional prayer book and asked me if I would like to take it with me to Mass. The breastfeeding peer counselor who was with her in the office reached out and took the prayer book and said, "Let's pray the prayer together right now! I didn't spend enough time in prayer this morning, either." I am tremendously blessed to work with wonderful women of faith who are open to sharing their love for Christ with anyone in need, including their stressed-out Catholic co-worker.
So the three of us gathered together and prayed over this passage:
"I am all around you, like a cocoon of Light. My Presence with you is a promise, independent of your awareness of Me. Many things can block this awareness, but the major culprit is worry. My children tend to accept worry as an inescapable fact of life. However, worry is a form of unbelief; it is anathema to Me.
Who is in charge of your life? If it is you, then you have good reason to worry. But if it is I, then worry is both unnecessary and counterproductive. When you start to feel anxious about something, relinquish the situation to Me. Back off a bit, redirecting your focus to Me. I will either take care of the problem Myself or show you how to handle it. In this world you will have problems, but you need not lose sight of Me." ~Luke 12:22-31; John 16:33 (From Jesus Calling by Sarah Young)
What a perfect and beautiful passage to calm my frazzled nerves! And as I walked over to church for the noon Mass I was comforted by that prayer and was led to pray John 16:33, one of my favorite gospels passages, under my breath, over and over again: "In this world you will have trouble. But take courage, I have conquered the world."
And I know that all will be well for God is in control. I am encased in His cocoon of Light.