The de Chantal Society, "a group of women passionate about praying for vocations and for families in the Archdiocese of Milwaukee, gathers three times per year at Saint Francis de Sales Seminary for eucharistic adoration and spiritual formation." Last spring, during Lent, Fr. Tom DeVries addressed the de Chantal Society with an inspiring talk on humility, sin and hope based upon wisdom learned from the desert monks. Fr. Tom is a great speaker, and at first I was so focused on listening to him that I didn't think to take notes on what he was saying, so the first section on humility is a little scant as I didn't completely catch all of what he said. Most interesting to me is the Mystery of Sin. As one who usually beats herself up over sins and mistakes, I had never before considered the fact that our sins could be the beginning of our salvation. Although these notes are from a Lenten talk and are not complete, the knowledge they contain can be useful to us at any time of year.
Give Me a Word:
Wisdom from Desert Monks
A Talk by Fr. Tom DeVries
A Talk by Fr. Tom DeVries
The Necessity of Humility
Without God I am nothing, can do nothing. Humility is being plunged into God. Without temptations no person can be
saved. With temptations we realize how
weak we are and we know without grace we cannot be saved. We must lose at something, be brought to the
edge of all of our resources and realize we can’t control, fix, explain or even
understand some of the things that happen to us. Do not be afraid of failure. It’s required for us if God will exalt
us. We don’t exalt ourselves; God does.
Realize we are not self-sufficient. Only God’s grace gets us through. Then we come to the important place where we
say “God, I surrender to your grace.” I
can agree in my head, but it’s hard in my life to get to those places. God will keep drawing me to the end of my
resources.
The Mystery of Sin
The Ambrosian Rite of the Church which was begun by
St. Ambrose and is still celebrated today around Milan, Italy, has a prayer for
the 16th Sunday of Ordinary Time that helps us to understand the mystery of sin: “Lord, you bent down over our wounds and
healed us giving us a medicine. In this
way, even sin, by virtue of Your invincible love, served to elevate us to divine
life.” This is echoed in Romans-Paul
says where sin increases grace abounds all the more. There is a mystery to sin, a paradox. It separates us from God but it’s precisely
the route He uses to have us come back to Him.
If we’re honest it’s really our sin that keeps us coming back to
God. We may think we have failed or we
are so wounded but it doesn’t stop God’s mercy.
God will use everything to bring us back to Him.
Everything I had deplored about my life was
precisely how God kept pulling me back.
I realized what a grace it was that I even became grateful for my
sin.
It sounds heretical but we sing about it at Easter
when we call the sin of Adam a Happy Fault.
Even when I was turning away from You, You were more powerful and were
drawing me back to You.
We base salvation upon woundedness to level the
playing field where everyone has access to God.
Julian of Norwich said: “Our wounds are our very trophies. They are the holes in the soul where light
breaks through.” Leonard Cohen, in the
song Anthem says, “Forget your
perfect offering. There is a crack in
everything. That is how the light gets
in.”
The Mystery of Sin follows on the heels of our
understanding of humility but it takes it one more step. God uses sin to draw close to us. Julian of Norwich tells us that both the
first fall and the recovery from the fall are the mercy of God. In falling down we learn almost everything
that matters spiritually. All of the
things that are achievements feed our ego too much. There are things we keep so secret because
they are just horrible, but if we own that one day we will even see our sin as
our trophy. It is falling upwards.
We often have a hate relationship with the faults,
wounds and failures of our lives but take heart; God will use it and we’ll be
able to thank God for the circuitous route and for all of our sins because God
never left you and He used your failure as the route to Him. People who don’t get close to God never admit
their sin and their failure.
Make a chart of your own life-the ups, downs,
failures, wounds, great times and bad times.
Realize in the woundedness and failure that you learn most about your
spiritual life. Where sin abounds, grace
abounds even more.
The
Challenge of Hope
Julian of Norwich says “All shall be well and all
shall be well and all manner of things shall be well.” St. Paul tells us that “Hope
does not disappoint because God’s love has been poured into our hearts.” St. Matthew says, “Behold! I am with you always even until the end of
the age.”
Christian hope is ultimate hope when we know what
our destiny is meant to be and that’s why we can go through humility and sin
because God is using it all to lead us beyond this world.
Transitory vanities won’t furnish us with our
deepest longings. We are eternal and
hope is ultimate and it’s God. St.
Benedict tells us that the present, even if it’s arduous, can be accepted if it
leads the way to a goal and the goal is God himself.
There is a difference between wishes and hope. Wishes are temporal and hope is eternal. Optimism is the expectation that things will
get better but hope is a trust that will lead us to true freedom. Hope is based upon God’s promise.
We shouldn’t lose the virtue of hope in our world
today. We look at the near future and we
can get pretty depressed, but we should not ever, ever, ever be people who have
a message of despair.
This is wonderful Anne! How blessed you are to have been present for this talk on humility. You have inflamed my "hope" in all things and shed some brilliant insight on sin and woundedness. Thanks so much for your recounting of these truths!! God bless...
ReplyDeleteCynthia, you're welcome! The wisdom is really from Fr. Tom, I'm just the messenger, but a grateful messenger that you found this post to be hopeful! God bless you as well!
DeleteI love this post, Anne. As someone who also has the tendency to "beat herself up" over sins and mistakes it really hit home with me. I know humility is key when it comes to sin but I get discouraged at times and come down hard on myself even though I know this is actually a manifestation of pride.
ReplyDeleteMary, that ever-lurking pride! It seems to be the source of all of our troubles, doesn't it? I found the mystery of sin to be very helpful, too, in learning to stop myself from beating myself up over everything I do wrong. It's a tough lesson, though. Very hard to get out of that habit. Thanks for all of the great ways you inspire!
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